My first paper; My Dear Family

Well tonight I have written my first paper back in school. I really hope that I completed the assignment properly. The teachers instructions weren't very clear and I just want to do a good job. I really hope things start to settle down. This week has been sooo over whelming and I am trying to keep it in perspective. I just want to do well and be able to handle things on my own independently. Not that i dont need my parents but they have an enormous amount of things to worry about and my insanity does not need to be one of them. I have such a wonderful family. My brother, is seven years younger than I, but is about 10 years smarter than I am. He is in college and is so smart. I know he doesnt know it but I am not only proud of him I look up to him in a way. He is such a loving and tender hearted man. He is going to be such a magnificent man and husband and father and person. He will make something so grand of him self and will make it look so easy. I truly love and feel so blessed to have him as my brother. Then there is my dearest sister, she is 22 and is completely lost. She doesnt see what everyone else sees in her. She is so self conscious and so scared, she cant even see the magnificence of the woman that she is. She is smart, witty, funny, beautiful, daring, courageous, sensible, fun loving, life loving, joyful and stimulating. She is like electricity in a soda can. She is so great that she short circuits herself out. She is going to take the longest road to get to the destination that she desires, but she will learn the absolute most because of her journey. For my sister the means to the end are all that matter for when she reaches her destination she will be board and ready to move on. She has been through so much and is still pushing through. One day when the LORD gives her her harvest of all that she has sown it will be so great that she will not believe its magnatiude. I am blessed to have another sister, 23. She is smart and grounded and lives in the "BIG CITY" She did the typical college thing. moved away got a job, broke and poor and met a boy. She to is so big hearted and sweet that she befriends the most interesting people. My only fear for her is that in her journey she will lose herself instead of finding her calling in life. I hope that one day she WAKES UP and sees her life and  those in it for who and what it is. I am so very proud of her and she will never know it. My siblings make me feel so enriched just knowing them. My parents. My parents are the most strong forces in my life. They literally are the air i breath and the beat of my heart. They have been there through my ups and down the dumb times in my life and the most proudest. I have disappointed them and shown them sides of me that i wish I could have died rather than face them. My parents have shown me what it is to love and be loved and they have shown me mercy grace forgiveness and redemption. To my parents, I love you and admire you. I am where I am today because of the love you have given me. Though I have let you down and have at times strayed away from the road you have so diligently guided me on, you have never given up on me. Never have you shook your heads and walked away. I am truly blessed and grateful to have you in my life and to know your love. Dad you have made me aspire to be a better woman, one that you would not only be proud of but one that you truly respected. Your respect is something that I will strive to keep everyday. Your words of wisdom, encouragement, love and comfort have made me push on, try harder, and never give up. You have made me better. My life is better because of it. My dearest Mother. You created me. I have looked up to you since my first memory. I can never imagine my life without you in it. My thoughts and fears are stored safely with you. I know that you love me just because and that no matter what I will always have you. My memories are all of you. Your in every one. Either physically or emotionally or spiritually or just there. You have created me in your image. You taught me how to dress, put my make up on, talk to boys, get a job, drive, cry, be mad, for give, love, hate, cook, tie my shoe, spell my name, be a woman. You listen to my words and my tears and my heart. You do not judge me nor do you con-dime me. I love you.
To my parents:
To everyone who helped pave my way
If it weren't for you I wouldn't be here today
To all my friends, the girls, the broken hearts
All the critics, cynics and doubters, y'all know who you are

Mom and dad, and all your prayers
And those looking down from up there

I didn't get here alone
That road's just too rough and long
I might be the one the spotlight's on
But, I didn't get here alone
Yeah, I know I didn't get here alone

That old ball coach that pushed me way too hard
That preacher man said 'Trust in God' and you'll go far
And I'll never forget the songs that changed my path
Just one more reason I'm where I'm at

Yeah, I hit walls and I wanted to quit
I picked myself up but the truth is, yeah, the truth is

I didn't get here alone
That road's just too rough and long
I might be the one the spotlight's on
But, I didn't get here alone
Yeah, I know I didn't get here alone

The crew, the band, yeah, and all you fans
That stood in line rain or shine
I want to thank everybody out there for the ride

'Cause I didn't get here alone
Ain't traveled one mile on my own
You're why I sing my song
You're why I sing my song

I didn't get here alone
That road's just too rough and long
I might be the one the spotlight's on
But I didn't get here alone
Yeah, I know I didn't get here alone

What does it mean?

Today was a very blessed day. I woke up this morning, and everything was okay. My family is here and for the most part healthy. I had the blessing of going to church and worshiping God. What a true blessing my day has been. While waiting for the service to begin I began thumbing through my Bible and I came across this scripture;

"O GIVE thanks unto the Lord, for he is good; for his mercy endureth for ever. Let the redeemed of the LORD say so, whom he hath redeemed from the hand of the enemy; And gathered them out of the lands, from the east, and from the west, from the north, and from the south. They wandered in the wilderness in a solitary way; they found no city to dwell in. Hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted in them. Then they cried unto the LORD  in their trouble, and he delivered them out of their distresses. And he led them forth by the right way, that they might go to a city of habitation. Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men! For he satisfieth the longing soul, and filleth the hungry soul with goodness."  PSALM 107,  1-9

Oh what a blessing and a joy to know that GOD will give us not only our hearts desires but he loves us so to show and give us mercy.