Life and love

    Well last night proved to be a challenging evening. I know and understand today why last night had to happen. I understand the lessons with in the sadness. Today is the start of something new. This blog started out as one thing and i do believe it will turn into something completely different. If you are out there and you do read my blog I thank You. Though at this point I really dont know why any one would be reading it.

Life

          Well when I started this blog I was living in Virginia, happy, with my boy friend whom I loved very much. We had a dog and an apartment that we both loved very much. He worked a half a day and was home before lunch most of the time. Everything was perfect. In November we celebrated being together a year and a half. surviving distance, lack of money, time apart, the military, so many things. We were okay.
      
            I am with out a doubt a hopeless romantic. I wanted the fairy tale romance. The gentleman, knight in shinning armor. Does he not exist? So now, i'm in what I truly think is a great, loving, honest relationship. One that the movies are made of. This is just not true though. The Wednesday prior to Thanksgiving, my world and relationship crumbled as I knew it. We got into an enormous argument, one that ended our relationship and changed my world completely.
      
               Knowing that you are where you are wanted and where you want to be is like a feeling that is un-parallel to anything one can read about. You have to feel life, be in it to experience it. Love, Hate, Lust, Desire, Admiration, Enjoyment, the list could go on and on, these are feelings that we as humans experience in life that make us different than the animals at our feet and beckon call. Knowing more and wanting better makes us different and unique to everyone around us.
    
            I thought I knew who I was and I thought that I was happy being the UN-WED, wifey type. We weren't getting married because we wanted to know more about each other, because I needed to know more about him. As close as we were was how far away I felt and alone I was sitting right next to him in the same room. How can you be in a house full of people and wonder, "is there something more?" Will there ever be, "the one".
       I have told those closet to me that the man I want doesn't truly exist, he can't be real because it is the one thing that my heart desires and I have no control over. Why is that so? Why are we taught as women to respect our selves and never to settle, that any man that doesn't treat you like the wonderment you are isn't worth our time. We are taught that, or at the very least made to believe that over time, yet he does not exist? Is that possible?

         Is it truly the way of the beast that what out hearts want, i mean truly honestly want, are the very things in which they cannot have. The desire for those things is so great that we ourselves get in our way and the goal never gets accomplished. Is this a fact or is this the way life is for 25 year olds in these days.
      
         At 25 I have managed to fall in love with 2 of the most hurtful men I could have met. Man 1 was just all kinds of wrong, my family has lovingly coined and reference him as simply, FROG! Man number 2, Thanksgiving man, I really loved and has subsequently thrown me off kilter because I really just don't know what happened.
    
       In a weeks time I have managed to move back home and set life back up at mommy's and daddy's again. My parents have been so great and they are so proud of how well I am taking this. But am I really dealing or is it all a show? At this point I don't think I really know. Saturday will be 2 weeks since I left Virginia and it feels like a life time and a day all at the same time. What has happened?

Getting older, am i getting wiser 2

Well tomorrow is my 25th birthday. Yesturday was mom's birthday and it went very well. I cooked dinner and my sisters came home. Mom had a very good day and everything turned out smoothly. Jen and Chad barley spoke, I guess that, thats what happeneds when your break lasts for almost a year. Why do couples take breaks? Take the two of them, they love each other and they are going to end up together, there is no doubt, but its been a year and they are still "not together". Heather, looked so good. She got in around 3 and helped me with dinner and decorations. She is 2.5 hours away trying to get a college education and make something of her self. She is dating a young man who she met at her job and they ended up growing very close to one another. Heather is very goal oriented and works herself silly. It works for her and she is so driven that it only can pay off for her. its bound to be the perfect way to make something better for your self. My parent had a house full of children, friends, family, love and enjoyment. There is a sense of peace and enduring that we each receive when we turn down the road and we see the house. Though its out side is tattered and worn, the memories that we each see when our eyes fall upon the house are the strengths that each of us carry through the world, and the power behind the love we share and the lives we live. Each of us are different and though we know that it is a powerful feeling it also brings with it the realization that we are on our own and that our well being is in our hands, not our parents.

Getting older, am i getting wiser

Thursday is my 25th birthday. I have drove up to my parents house and will be spending the week with them. My sister will be coming down from upper Delaware on Tuesday because that is mommys birthday and we will all be home for the occasion. Life has seemed to move on and it doesn't make its self known until the times in your life that you reflect on what youve done and where you have gone. This is the start of many entires that will reflect on what this time of year means to me. Who am i and what do i contribute to the world. More will come tomorrow.

good nite all

Sorry its been soo long

Well i am here. Working like crazy posting new pictures this week. Probably today. Hope all the Crafties out there enjoy them. Christmas count down starting. 50 something days till . . .

Up Crazy Early. . . Why

Well I am up at 5:00 today. Why? I would love to go to sleep, I am very tired. Honestly I am not one of "Those" people who wake up early so that they can "do" things. I enjoy sleeping. I don't go to bed early, I usually am the last in our home to go to sleep. I wake up often and I seldom honestly rest. To many things to do and my mind doesn't like to STOP and think about me and what I need. It is truly annoying. I am waiting to go to sleep until at least he gets to work and texts me that he is there.  He says I worry too much and that I need to calm down and trust him, but I haven't figured that one out yet. Its nearly 6, and I am still waiting for my mother to get on, would like to talk to her now but in the off chance she slept in I do not want to be the one to wake her up. I would feel way to bad. I haven't worked in two days and its frustrating me to no end. First he hurts his neck and then we end up going fishing. Nemo is staring me down and is so tired I truly think if he could talk he would not have many nice things to say to me right now. He may be a dog but some of the looks he gives me you would swear he truly understood. Well its 6 now, I think I am going to try and go back to sleep, until later.

Skrappenton

Rainy Days

Today its raining again. I am going to be in my craft room all day creating Christmas pages. I will be posting them on my blog when they are finished. Yesterday I went Christmas shopping, theres only like 60 days till Christmas. Check my Twitter page through out the day for up dates.


Skrappenton

Makin Scrapbook Seem So Easy.

Well today is a creating day. Yesterday I went live on Etsy and it was unreal. My things, my creations, out there for all the world to see. Pretty cool! I am always looking for ideas and materials in all the things I see. Today I am finishing up the start of my brothers graduation, I have an enormous amount of photos from that day, and though I don't want to use all of them, I want to make sure I use the right ones to get across the right message. Check my blog out the beginning part of the weekend to see what this page has turned out to be.

Thanks
Happy Scrappin'

Skrappenton

Finally Up and running!

Today I went live on Etsy. Please check out my page under the name TopTags. Many good things there to buy. Its been a long day. Took pictures and listed 16 things on the site to sell. Hopefully something will sell.
These are my favorite items from todays batch. Please feel free to let me know what you think.

All about Me!

That's what is supposed to go here. I have filled out a lot of these kinds of forums in the past few years. I graduated high school almost 6years ago. Time surly does fly. I grew up in a little ole' town, Delmar. I came from a large family, two sisters and one brother. We have one set of parents, and this year they will be celebrating their 27th wedding anniversary. I went to college and earned my teaching degree in such a long time span it seemed as though it would never come to be. Shortly after receiving my degree I began teaching preschool children in DE. At the close of last school year I was let go from the school in which I taught at. Fully expecting a call back my summer was spent worry free.
Almost 2 years ago I met a very special man. He seemed to good to be true and being the untrusting type ( I wasn't always like that but that's a different story), I gave him such a hard time. Over this past summer we decided to move me to Virginia so that I could be closer to him. He being in the Navy didn't give us many choices. Moving was the most difficult decision I have ever had to make. It met leaving everyone that I loved and truly cared about. My brother and sisters and dad and . . . my mother. . .
Me and my mom. Wow, now there is a story. She is the most wonderful person I have ever known. I never realized how great she was, maybe I realized it but I know I didn't appreciate her value and worth. Leaving her is just as hard today as it was 5 months ago. But in true mommy fashion, she backed me and pushed me to do and be better. Like she says, she just wants better for her kids than she and dad had. I love my father, but he is "daddy", and mom is my . . . air. She taught me everything I know; how to be a good person, and woman, a teacher, to be strong, confident, and great. She taught me how to create something out of nothing and so many values that I don't know that she really knows how much she has impacted my world.
SCRAPBOOKING! That is truly an illness, fetish, weakness. Call it what you may, if you scrap your far deeper in than you ever thought you would be. Mom and I started back when scrapbooking first made it really big. (You remember, Michaels still had the stickers on the rolls, and 8.5X11 was the paper size.) There we were figuring out the difference between Acid free and regular paper, and why any ole' glue just would not do. We caught the fever and have been scrapbooking ever since.
Now back to the "JOB" thing. Yeah teachers aren't as hard to come by in Virginia as they are in DE. I looked and looked and even had a few interviews and well, Nada! Nothing, no jobs anywhere. I have degrees, certificates, awards, certifications, and no job. That's just great. So I go into my Scrapbook room and I shoot my mom and instant message, and it dawns on me. I have good ideas, I love scrapbooking, and i'm pretty good at it too. I could open up my own "shop", couldn't I?
Just 10 short hours later I am sitting across from my boyfriend laying out my plan of action. Having already receiving a crash course in, the what's what and the who's who in cyber land from mom, I embark on a reading adventure. Handmade goods have their own store front now, Etsy.com, and not only do you list but now you blog, tweet, facebook, myspace, virb, photobucket, and on and on and on. Are you kidding? Can you blog on one site, NO! there is page after page, site after site, it's never ending.
I have created a web page, one of those freebie deals. I hope that it acts as a bit of a 'hub', between everything that I am on. Please, please, please, look me up check out my auctions, listings, blogs, tweets, and everything else that there is.
It's a new adventure, let's see where it's going to take me. Thank you for your time, if you read the entire thing I hope it made you think back to that special time and place in your life.
Have Fun.
Happy Scrapping.
Skrappenton

Wishing everyone a Great weekend

Hi everyone. in cyberland. I Just wanted to wish everyone a great weekend. Heading to DE this weekend and will be back on Monday. Next week I go live so be sure to come with me on this journey. Thanks

Skrappenton

The Day of NEW beginings

Today I have set up quite a few different things. I am now on Twitter and blogspot and coming soon I will be selling my paper tags and frames on ETSY. Please continue to stop in and be with me from the beginning.

Skrappenton

New and Learning

Hello fellow bloggers. Today I have started the setup for my at home business. I am a blogging, Tweeting, Scrapbooking, tag making, workaholic, roller skating home worker. I will be posting blogs at least once a day, taking everyone with me along my business journey.